Insignificant.

Hello dear blog!

Since the last time I have written on this thing, a bunch of things have happened. About a month ago I moved into an apartment with my friend Nikki and her boyfriend Matt. I wasn't really worried about leaving my dads house because I had lived in an apartment before. This time it's really different.

I used to live with my ex boyfriend Antonio. I worked at a restaurant near that apartment, and there were a lot of stores around it so I never really had to worry about a car. When I lived with Antonio I was really independent, the only time I ever needed any thing from one of my parents was when I needed to go to school. I went to school until 2pm and then I would go to work until 9 or 10pm after school. When I got back to the apartment I would eat (my job gave you food) and then clean the house. Antonio worked from 4pm until 2am so I always had the place to myself and it was peaceful.

Now it's not so peaceful. I have to buy food all the time, and get rides to work, and deal with both of my roommates. I get easily annoyed by them because I have to see them all the time and they're both a bit ostentatious. I don't see Matt too often because he usually works at night, but I really can't stand him when I do see him. He goes in my room all the time and it makes me mad. I don't go in his room, he shouldn't go in mine! He is a very selfish man and blindly thinks only of himself. He kicked my brother out of my house, after barging into my room, because he had drugs on him. He was really rude about it. I knew my brother had drugs and so did Nikki and my brother knew he wasn't allowed to do them in my house. My brother just went into my room to do some thing so he wouldn't be in every ones way. Matt barged into my room and said, "Get the fuck out of my house!" To be blunt, it pissed me off. In my mind it's not anyones job to yell at my brother except mine! I think Matt is selfish and ignorant because as soon as my brother left he apologized to me. If you are going to act recklessly and apologize immediately after, you should think before you act a little longer. The next day Matt was complaining about how Nikki doesn't like his sister. He said, "I never get to see my family! Its not fair that they can't come to our apartment because it's my house too!" I haven't seen my brother in a month, and last I knew I was paying for the apartment too.

I'm trying to get over my anger because I can see why Matt is angry. I'm trying to become unbiased in my opions these days. I think it is a good thing to challenge yourself to see both sides of an issue before you pass judgement.

Nikki is bothering me a little bit too. She's always been rude, but I can't stand it when she's rude to me.

I feel lonely lately, and terribly insignificant. I don't want to sound cliche or depressed but, if I wasn't here it wouldn't effect anyone.