Hypocrite.

I went to a wedding on Saturday.
It was very cute, and mushy, and lovey-dovey..
All that loathsome bullshit.
I could be happy for them but it just made me go a little crazy.
Luckily there was an open bar, and I didn't think about all the crazy things while I was sipping on gin.
I can see how it would be easy to become an alcoholic.

I was feeling depressed, because it was such a great wedding. There were lots of people that showed up from all over just to celebrate something with people they cared about. To me weddings are kind of petty, and not really all that they used to be.. so I guess flying from CAli for a wedding was a pretty nice thing to do.

The craziness set in because I can count the people that I care about on my hands, and they had a huge place full of them. These kinds of feelings I don't like keeping. 'It's human.' to feel things, but there's nothing great about being human.

To be a hypocrite this song is making me feel happy.
It's making me think that maybe those people getting married felt this way, and that's why they did it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EyCSeTY8LQ

If it's the dream that you chased
Don't be afraid of getting hurt
On nights then you tremble, I'll hold you close
And so
Stop with that sad looking face
Let me see your smile
It's more wonderful and more precious to me than anything else, that smile.