Le Sigh

I don't like my boyfriend! I want to break up with him but I don't know how to do it... I could be crappy and send him a message on myspace or some thing, but that's not nice.. But I really don't like him as a boyfriend~ He's not my type at all. I really liked him since we liked a lot of the same things but..~ Yeah, he's too much like a kid to date. He doesn't even know how to kiss. Though, if I break up I will still have to see him since he's going to the same college as me..

Speaking of college! Jee, how scary. I think I need to become more mature and learn how to deal with people. College is full of new people that I don't know at all! That's scary. I don't like working with people so I hope I don't have to in any of my classes. I'm taking a placement test on Wednesday to see what classes I have to be put in. My friend Antonio has this plan for me.. Since it makes him upset to see my family is kind of not wonderful, he wants me to move away with him..hahaha. So after this semester of college I am going to move away~

For school they give you money to spend on things you need for school, like books and computers. I think they give $4,000 maximum. I think I'll buy a car! That way I can be more independent and not have to rely on other people for things I want. Yesterday Antonio told me, "You have to remember that you are alone in the world. If you want some thing you have to work for it yourself, no one will give it to you!" Ahh he's very right.. Yesterday Antonio also took me out to teach me how to drive hahaha. It was really fun but I'm glad the parking lot I was in was almost empty. ~

I want to travel but I'm afraid of air planes. ;_;!